“It was believed in ancient Egypt that WHITE OWLS represented the souls of babies that have passed away too soon. When a baby was lost early in pregnancy, stillborn, or died very soon after birth, it would transform into a WHITE OWL spirit to accompany its parents on their journeys throughout their lifetimes. This special WHITE OWL spirit guide offers lifelong protection, angelic love, and spiritual guidance & energy from the other side to its parents for an eternity. It was both sacred & revered to have the WHITE OWL spirit guide with you.”
I do not usually share this story with clients; however, I felt as though it might be helpful to share it with you now.
I had an early pregnancy loss with my 3rd. At the time, my husband was working nights and couldn’t be home with me. My midwife was nowhere to be found; she didn’t seem to have the time, want, or compassion to be with me as I painfully passed the “products of conception” alone at home and on my own. This was a traumatic experience for me and I was devastated by it. As my uterus continued to contract, my heart was actively breaking into a million pieces. I remember looking upward through my tears and asking, screaming, and demanding to know the answer to why I had to go through such a terribly painful human experience. I sobbed and sobbed until there were no more tears left to cry.
Later that night through an impactful dream, it was revealed to me that my life’s path was not to be a “mother of three”, but a “midwife to many”. I decided upon waking that I was going to channel all that anger, sadness, and grief into becoming a midwife myself, somehow and someday. I never wanted any other woman to feel blamed, forgotten, or broken because she had lost a baby too-early and unnecessarily. I decided to set my life’s course squarely on the path to making that happen.
13+ years later, I finally became a Certified Nurse Midwife and Women’s Health Nurse Practitioner. I had endured 2 divorces, several relocations, the traumatic loss of my biological & adopted mothers, years of graduate nursing school during COVID and so many other challenges and obstacles, too numerous to list.
2 years later, after watching the healthcare system traumatize birthing women repeatedly, I decided to quit group/inpatient practice and open my own private homebirth practice. I was going to call it “Blue Lotus Birth Services” because lotus flowers emerge from dark, deep, smelly, mucky waters to create the most beautiful & aromatic of flowers that offer enlightenment and beauty to the world. I thought it was a perfect name and it had great symbolism within my life.
But the Universe had held a secret from me, that it was about to reveal.
Later that night, I dreamt a profound dream – similar to the first one I had when I lost my pregnancy. This time it was a beautiful, majestic WHITE OWL spirit guide that came to me with a message. The WHITE OWL was surrounded by a galaxy of stars. It had an intense stare, but a warm beam of golden light emanating from its core in the shape of an egg. This WHITE OWL spirit guide had come to me to show me the way through. It offered me protection, insight, love, compassion, hope and familiarity. When I awoke this time, I knew quite clearly what the message was. I was to call the new practice “White Owl Midwifery & Birth Services, which magically spelled out “WOMBS”.
I began researching everything I could about what the meaning of a WHITE OWL appearing in dreams was all about. There were many stories, myths and representations to explore. Then I came upon the ancient Egyptian belief (which I shared at the beginning of my story) and I instantly succumbed to a flood of emotions. Honestly, I was slightly in disbelief as I read and re-read the words aloud to myself over and over. They resonated deeply within me on a soul-spirit level.
Once I learned that WHITE OWLS were also associated with the Eastern Band of Cherokee Indian healers and wise women, the Kituah, I had deep and clear conviction about the next phase of my personal, professional, and spiritual journey. This was it. The culmination of my life’s work and calling.
For me, the interpretation was that my WHITE OWL spirit baby had never left my side. They had always been there protecting and guiding me towards my life’s purpose; to nurture and care for others who are experiencing the same life and death transitions that I had experienced once before. I was forever changed by this dream. My WHITE OWL spirit baby is with me always, “supporting me through every phase” of my own personal journey, as well as the journeys I am invited to take alongside the women and families that seek me out to care for them. With my White Owl Spirit Guide, I never feel out of touch with Spirit, for it is all around us, just as it is everything within us.
